~~ it has been so long since i have written since i have been able to sit and write what i feel, it has been so long since i have felt like everything was right in my life. I sat here this morning on this on so happy valentines day and re-read all the poetry i have written before. Then i took a step back and realized that it has been almost two years since i have truly picked up an pencil and paper and wrote a thought... then i realized that it has been two years since i have really had an emothion to feel. i don't know what happened to a love i once had and how that love has slowly crept its way out of my life, but i miss those feelings. i miss the ability to wirte in rhyme or reason how i felt. life has changed so much and i don't know how to change it back... i was once so inspired by love and now there is nothing but a dry vessel, waiting patiently for the rain. What do you do when you feel that you have no love to express anymore, what do you do when you feel that love has found its way out of your life, and you had no choice in the matter. what do you do when you want so badly just to feel that way again, when you have but everything you have ever wanted but feel that there is nothing that you have at all because there is not love overflowing from the heart. grrrrr..... i just don't know anymore i used to write, i used to love, i used to feel so strong about things, and now it has faded.....